Blæh!

I just downed 500 cals in about ten minutes - Yuck

And I've grown - sideways! Yuck

Meassured myself today. Thighs, hips, waist, chest, arms
All have increased

So has my weight :(
Back at 52,3kg /115,3 lbs

And I'm in a terrible mood right now - which can only be cured by a two step plan

1. Eat chocolate the whole day and feel unbelievably sorry about my self.
2. Use laxatives tonight and get rid of everything tomorrow and not eat for several days

And if my know my self right.... When I've lost three/four pounds and feel better...

I'll do it all over again
I'm so patetic

My other weaknesses

These are the things that make me fat

Some are easy to stay away from - like TGI Friday's and Starbuck - cause I actually have to drive to another city to get there....

Some are far harder to avoid....
Chocolate most of all

I love chocolate - in almost every shape, size and taste - except the really dark one.

And most of all..... This:

Slouching on the coach in front of the TV sipping cosmo and Asti

Work out! Me? WTF?

I - me - actually, and I'm not lying here now, although you probably think so - went for a run yesterday!!??

Well of course it wasn't by free will! Duh!

But as my daughter thought running in the dark, alone, was not a good idea...
I was the not so bad alternative

So I went with her. And actually ran. For 45 minutes!
So there you go! Even I can if I have to

My weakness

Some of you will probably not know what this is....

But freshly made NORWEGIAN waffles (they are not at all like Belgian waffles - those are to sweet)
With brown cheese (yes! goat cheese) and sour creme (can do without the jam though)

That wonderful smell when these are made - OMG

Say Whaaat?

Shit!
I haven't been here since august 28th? That's like two months ago!!

Wow! I know it's been hectic and all at work but I really didn't think I was that off.

To anyone that for some far fetched reason follows my blog - I appologize!
Although I'm not sure anyone does *haha*

Well - to let you know where I stand right now...
I just started a massive restriction week after weighing in at 117.9lbs on Sunday morning *gross*

I'm very happy to see it work and the face the number 111.9lbs on the scale today.

Which means I've gone from this:

To this:

I'm so proud of my self!!!

 

And the best feeling right now....

The feeling of my pants hanging loosely from my hips