Wohoo! Merry Christmas!

And Santa is bringing me the gift I really want...

A super skinny body!!!

Stepped on the scale this morning..... 52,1 kg!!!!

I'm seriously about to reach my new UGW! I  can hardly believe it!!
I'm so happy I could dance all day.

And I start jumping up and down everytime I meet someone at the store. They stop and look at me and say:
"Wow! You lost like a lot of weight!"

And I start bouncing...."Yes! Isn't it great?!" Don't I look fantastic!!!

I  love it love it love it!!! 


Have a super skinny day you all!

Getting my act together again

How come one weekend can make such an unwanted result.
Yesterday I actually felt FAT at 117lbs

Bloated and fat!

My belly actually hung out above the waistline of my jeans. YUCK!
SO of course... action was necessary!

First off a good washout with lots of water and two laxative pills to get rid of pizza and chocolate, lasagna and cookie dough.

Lots of more water today and wholegrain bread with chicken to restore proteins.

Feel better already. Dropped 1 pound since yesterday evening.
So I'll take a few days of though love now to regain control.

Christmas spirit

I can't help it... I'm a sucker for Christmas and everything with it.

From Christmas trees, to Christmas decorations, Christmas cookies, Christmas music, Christmas shopping, wrapping presents, going to church, baking gingerbread cookies, decorating the gingerbread house.... the list is endless.

And so are the number of calories in everything we eat around this time of year. Bah
So now I'm looking for a way to make my favorite Christmas cookies low calorie... and NOT loose their flavour.. If that's even possible!

Sometimes I wish we lived in the States and I could have turkey for dinner. At least that would save me a couple of hundred calories on Christmas Eve. Although your stuffing and side dishes are probably stuffed with calories too...
But no. Since I live in Norway we eat Christmas ribs, with sausages and meatballs, sauerkraut and red cabbage, and potatoes soaked in rib fat . And finish the meal with caramel pudding with whipped cream!

And I wish I could say I don't like it. But I love it!!! It's the best

My absolute favorite Christmas cookies are Mandeln Lebkuchen, Almond slices. A German Christmas cookie that my mother has always baked for Christmas. I think there's about 100 calories in each little cookie.

I'll better be prepared...  I'll be fat as a pig again when Christmas is over....

Feels like dreaming

I stopped in front of the mirror today and thought to my self.... Wow! Shit that's me!!
That skinny, happy girl is actually me!!!

Every time I pull on my jeans size 27" I'm constantly worried they'll not fit. That I only dreamed that this skinny figure was mine, and that I'll wake up again, fat and wobbly with my tummy hanging out above the waistline of my pants.

Then I look in the mirror and smile - I'm still skinny. I don't think I'm dreaming.

Why oh why

Why does it always have to be something to celebrate?
Xmas party,  colleagues 50th birthday, senior Xmas coffee...

And why do we always have to celebrate with food?
Cake, chocolate and cookies...

And why oh why do I always have to eat stuff, just because it's there on the table, right in front of me? Why can't I just send the plate forward and let others help them self to all these bloody calories...

Jeez I'm so week I wanna cry...
And I've gained weight... Of course I have... what else was tehre to expect when I stuff my face with junk three days in a row....

God I feel like crap right now.... Think I'll go to bed and just forget about this awful food stuffing!!

Fat monday

Xmas parties are a lot of fun, but oh so not good for my skinny body.
All that yummy food, delicious cakes, tasty wine and umbrella drinks.....
What is a poor girl to do?

So I decided then and there to not give a damn.... and just have fun.
So my third Xmas party in nine days *jeeez* no wonder I feel like Jabba the Hutt

Glorious Skinny Friday

The sun is shining, the snow is glittering, it's Friday and the scale showed me 52,9!!!! this morning.

And it's my birthday!!!!

I've had cake for lunch, with whipped cream and chocolate. Just a little bite *snickering*

Can't wait to come home and have tacos, put my feet up and enjoy a delicious Cosmopolitan!

Oh and have you seen this??


I want to buy this!!

Liebster Blog Award

Thank you to Skylar for nominating me to the Liebster Blog Award!
To think that someone actually appreciate my scribbling 

The rule is to reveal 11 things about your self... so here goes that:

1. I'm old! Like over 40 :P
2. I've been married for 15 years
   
3. I've got two teenage kids
4. I'm lazy, selfish and if I can get away with not doing anything I will do exactly that
5. I always wear high heels
6. I'm always cold so my favorite indoor temp is 27C / 80F or higher
7. I think my boss is an idiot, but I love my job and my colleagues so I stay putt
8. I love eating at TGI Friday's and I always order the same food 
9. I max out my credit card every month and try to hide it from my hubby
10. I speak fluent Norwegian, English, German and Swedish, and I'll survive if I end up in France
11. It's my birthday today! 

 
So to complete the award here are the answers to Skylar's 11 questions

1. What is your favourite memory? Starbucks London, November 1997, my birthday, Eggnog Latte, the seat next to me filled with shopping bags, my newly purchased Louis Vuitton bag on the table, and my boyfriend kneels down, takes my hand, holds out a gold ring and proposes to me
2. What was your first relationship like?
   Sex, drugs and rock'n roll. Not at all healthy, and lasted six months.
   
3. Club Party or House Party? That would be Club Party, although I'm more of a "local-pub-girl" but I do like my cocktails in a glass with high stem
4. Who is your icon idol? Jennifer Aniston, Julia Roberts, Meryl Streep and Julie Andrews
   Always classy, always stylish, always beautiful no matter their age
   
5. One rule that you live your life by? If you like it! Grab it! Or someone else will and you won't have it!
   
6. If you could have any pet what would it be (any animal)?
   With out a doubt - cats! I love my two cats <3
   
7. If you had one super power what would it be?
   To destroy all weapons on earth, just by the will of my mind
   
8. Ideal celebrity partner and why?
   George Clooney! Does it need an explanation?
   Eyes, wrinkles, smile, ass!!
   
9. What are your favorite movies?
   The Devil Wears Prada (lot of skinny)
   Working Girl
   Back to the Future trilogy
10. What is your star sign?
    Sagittarius
    
11. What is your biggest regret?
    Not going straight to uni after high school

The rule is that I now must nominate someone else and ask them 11 questions.
That would be:

1. How do you take your coffee?
2. Your favorite car?
3. What memory of you and your mother do you cherrish the most?
4. High heels or flats? And why?
5. Which book has moved you the most?
6. If you won $1.000.000 and could not spend it on your self, what would you do with it?
7. Which city that you have never been to, would you like to visit? And with whom?
8. Painting or pictures on your walls?
9. How many pair of shoes do you own?
10. One thing you would never do, not even for $100.000.000?
11. What's in your handbag?

And I nominate:
Wanting to live 
Zero Intentions 
Light as a feather 
nothing tastes as good as skinny feels 
I think I'm supposed to nominate 11 blogs - but I don't follow that many blogs...and a lot of those that I do follow have already been nominated... so 4 it is then!

Wow! Does time fly when you're having fun

And I am having fun!!
Jeez, every time I step on the scale it's like freakin Xmas *haha*

I had two Xmas parties this weekend. And a family gathering.
And I lost 100g (or 0,2 lbs if you like) from Thursday to Tuesday!!!

And that feeling.... dressing up for the Xmas party in my little black dress - SIZE 2!!! - knowing and seeing I so was the thinnest one there. Wow! What a rush!

 

Now that won't be a problem anymore as I now have acquired that Oh so famous, Oh so wanted

SPACE BETWEEN MY THIGHS!!!

Focus Girl! Focus!

So easy to fall back into old habits...

And when you kind of feel that you've reached your goal, it's so easy to lay back and NOT STAY FOCUSED.

And what happens then?? Well, what ya think happen when your stuff your face with cake 4 days in a row?? Stupid, idiotic girl!!

So today and for the f*ing rest of the week little missy! You will go hungry!!!
And you will take the gnawing pain from your stomach and embrace it and love it - for it means you have focus and will get thin...

... will get thin...
...... will get thin...
.......... will get thin...
................. will get thin...
............................ will get thin... 
 

Upping the calories

So I decided to up the calories a bit this weekend since the scale hasn't been kind with the numbers. Maybe that will make the weight loss continue. Kind of sick and tired of watching 54 on the scale...

Was very successful when I did it the last time, so hoping it will do the trick this time too.

The guys at work are complaining that I'm about to disappear - idiots...
Like I'll start eating to humor them in any way??!!! No way!! Besides.. of course they don't know that.. I LOVE IT, when they comment how thin I've become *HA HA*

I LOVE BEING THIN - Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels!

Now I just need to get my thighs a bit thinner so they look a little bit more like these!

I will get there - I know!!

Jeeez..... Oh, and I reached a decision

Can you believe it. The bloody weight just won't move further down!!
54,1.??!!??
I wanna see 53!!! Why does it have to take so long to reach that bloody number?

Oh and I've decided to change my UGW from 54 kg/119 lbs to 52 kg/114,5 lbs.
Which means my scale has to show the number 51,9/144.4 for me to declare goal weight reached

Still not there

Still not at 54!!??
Just hovering over my UGW, now at 54,3...
I kind of know why. But still bugs me that I'm not getting there.

Which is no surprise, since I've kind of relaxed a little about my weight loss now that I'm nearly there.

Had cake yesterday.... and today....
But haven't gone all awol on counting my calories, and do think I'm still pretty good at keeping it low.
Although I'm not as totally nazi with my self as I used to.

I'm not sure I've lost my motivation, or if I still have it.
I feel like I'm... there. Where I wanna be.
The jeans I bought yesterday, size 27, fit me perfectly.
The, OMG i love it so, space between my thighs is so visible.

I get comment every day on how thin I look. Even a few saying I have to start eating again otherwise I'll disappear...

And I feel so, so good!

And then there's a part of me that still isn't happy, and that's fearing that the weight will all come back. But I'm afraid that voice isn't strong enough.

So I need something to help me strengthen my motivation for loosing just a few more pounds so that I have a little buffer zone. Any tips?

Weekend ending

So finally the weekend is coming to an end. Can't wait for the everyday. It's so much easier to handle loosing weight Monday to Friday than on the weekends.

There's like always something special. Either it's Friday night and that it self is a reason for at least one glass of red wine.. or two. And something good to eat. Then it's Saturday and a trip to the mall of course includes a coffee stop. No coffee with friends without something sweet. And so the weekend goes. No wonder people (I) get fat.

Oh well. To morrow it's Monday again and back at 400 calories. That will be good.

So I'll finish this weekend with a last glass of wine, Downton Abbey and flat out on the sofa. Yiha!!

And I thought so

Stepped on the scale this morning and as I sadly predicted, it was already beginning to move upward.
Not good..and of course tonights dinner and glasses of red wine will probably not do any good.

Oh well.. just have to face it. I wont be hitting my UGW this monday as I hoped.
But the good thing is that the jeans I bought three weeks ago are now at least one, almost two sizes to big Ha Ha

Weekend comming up

Used to long for the weekends - the cosmopolitans, good food, red wine, curling up on the sofa with a good book, a  large piece of yummi cake, some chocolate... jeez! No wonder I was fat!!

Well I still normally look forward to the weekends... just that today I'm so incredible close to reaching my goal weight right now, I'm afraid that even a diet weekend will blow it.

So how will I get through this weekend  and still drop a pound from today til Monday?

Thinspiration to my self!

If I ever get fat again (which WILL NOT happend!!!)
This will be my Thinspiration!

This is what I've worked for the last three months!
I did this!

I'm so proud of my self!!!
 

I know the worst part is still ahead of me! Staying this way!
Not dodging the hard work and letting my self go.

I've gone from a size 10 to a size 4!!!
I love my new skinny me!!

 

I am my own thinspiration

I started this blog on August 20th. Sick and tired of my fat body. I'd been working on loosing some weight a few weeks already, when I stumbled over a Thinspiration blog and got curios of the Ana-way to loose weight.

After my vacation in July I weighed 67,6 kg/149 lbs.
On August 20th I was down to 64,2 kg/141,5 lbs - that's 3,4 kg/7.5 lbs lost in 4 weeks (0,85kg a week).
Since I started this blog and found my thinspiration....I've lost another 9,4 kg/20,7 lbs in the 9 weeks (1,04 kg a week)

Today I stepped on the scale and the number 54,8/120,8 lbs showed up.
My Ultimate Goal Weight was 54 kg/119 lbs.
I'm almost there....

• I've been wondering if I'd ever get there?
• How long it would take?

Now, new questions arise...

• What the heck do I do now?
• Should I loose a little more so that I have a buffer for adding weight when I start eating "normal"?
• What is eating "normal" now?

I'm thinking of lowering my UGW to 112 lbs...

I have to think some more about that. I don't want to go to far Ana.

But right now - I revel in the sight of my own reflection each time i look in the mirror!
I love my new skinny me!

Binging on salat???

Jeez!
Didn't think I'd do that!!

Had to take my daughter out eating today, so I had a caesar salad with chicken and a diet coke.
Put the bread aside (don't eat much bread - too many calories)... and then ate almost the whole plate of salad?!?

Broke all my eating rules 
Didn't eat slowly
Didn't swallow everything before I took the next bite
Finished the plate

Shopping - my favorite hobby

And especially when I HAVE to go shopping because I'm now TWO - 2 - sizes smaller than I used to be!!!

So I went to the mall yesterday and spent a fortune on a new skirt, new pullover, a pair of new jeans and a pair of slacks, and most of all, new bras! Jeez my boobs are now so petite.

It's weird to think about that I in August used to be a size EU 38/40 (US 8/10)
And yesterday  a pair of slacks size 36 (US 6) was....*drum roll* .... TOO BIG!!!

I bought a pullover in XS and a pair of slacks size 34 (US 4)
OMG did that feel good!!

OMG! OMG! OMG!

This is like so fantastically insane.
Guess going away for three days and eating hotel breakfast, drinking wine and eating out at TGI Friday's is something I should do more often!

Had a great time, but was rather sure that this great time would show up on the scale this morning.
I mean... 2460 calories on Wednesday!! And more than 2000 of those for dinner. How would that do any good for my loosing weight project??

Then I faced my scale this morning!!!
55,8 kg!!!! Fifty Five Point Eight!!!
123 lbs!! One Hundred and Twenty Three!!! 

How come... I've lost 1,3 kg/2,8 lbs, in one week
Wish I knew what I've done, so I can do it again next week and loose 2,8 lbs more 

The second day of the week effect

So I had this kind of depressing meeting with my scale yesterday.
I mean 7 ounces!! What's that?

But then I faced my scale again this morning, and I do love the second-day-of-the-week-effect
It's like it takes my body one weekday to shed the extra that I've eaten during the weekend.
And boy did it.
 
Yesterday  my scale stopped at 57,1kg or 125,8 lbs
Today is stopped at.... drum roll.... 56,8 kg or 125,2 lbs

Which means...... I've reached my second goal weight!!!

My reasons...

1000 reasons to lose weight

Long time no see

Jeez haven't posted here in almost a week now.
And that shows on my scale - lost focus and didn't loose weight. Not that I've gained any. Actually did loose a bit, but really nothing to brag about.

So been waiting to reach 125 lbs, and I'm almost there...and have been almost there for more than a week now.
Just hovering above the number on the scale. Actually saw a hint of it on Thursday, but Friday it was gone again. So sad!

But I've decided it's focus-time-week and those bloody last pounds are going away whether they like to or not.

I'll have to drop my calorie intake a few notches and have more focus on posting here and following through each day.

That will be a piece of cake, as I'll be going away for three days this week, staying at a hotel and dining at TGI Friday's ..... Yeah right! Good luck with that.

Well wish me luck, cause I'll need it.

Going down...

So I had to face my scale yesterday. Kind of nerve wrecking since I haven't looked at it for a week.
But fortunately..... I'm still going down!!

126,3 lbs

Still a bit further to reach my next goal weight - and things are definitely moving slower now than in the beginning. But I'm closing in on that fantastic number 1 2 5

I've also tried to do more workouts to build muscles so that I'll loose that bloody fat and not just my muscles.

Meeting the scale

A week away from home without the opportunity to step on my scale has been kind of weird.
But tomorrow I have to face the numbers on it.
Not sure I look forward to it or dread it?

I wonder what it will show?
I have been very good at counting every calorie I've eaten this week, and we've been out and about almost every day, so I really, really hope to see a nice number tomorrow morning.

But I'm not gonna step on it now at this time of the day. That will just give me a number I can't compare with anything else...

So I'll just have to wait.... 

Lovely autumn evening

Enjoying a glass of sparkling dry white wine, and some dried fruit in front of the fireplace tonight, while I am delighted to have reached my goal of writing down my handicap (# THAT FEELING) in golf this season. Had a great round on the course today and it was so fun to finally reach my goal handicap after training all summer. 

And to top it off! I can do it with a clear conscience cause I'm still below 1000 calories for today (included wine and fruit ..). (# THAT FEELING)

I wish you all a superb autumn evening! 

Week 8 ?!?!

Jeez, I can't believe I'm already on my eight week of this! Had my first really blow to the face today when I stepped on my scale. Friday I was so happy to see 57,9 on the scale, and today... 58,3!!!!
And I here I thought I've been doing so good last week. Actually started working out a bit too.  Arrrg - makes me feel so miserable...

So proud!!

So just have to share with you how good I've been today. And then I don't mean in a anorectic not eating at all way, but in a I actually worked out! At the cabin.

Found my favorite Buns & Thighs workout from my Samsung App on You Tube and did that, and two pilates workout videos too!

I have so deserved my second Cosmopolitan today - that's for sure!!!

Hoping the weekend won't break my good roll...

So back at the cabin in the mountains with the family.
Tends to be good food and lot of snacks and goodies. Just have to be careful not to fall in to bad habits and stuff my face. 

Hope the weather gets better so we can go for some long walks in the mountains or maybe go golfing or something that burns calories.

I'm on a roll here

So I'm totally hooked om my new Samsung TV Fitness App, which made me do a workout yesterday too.

And for some strange reason I had like a ton of energy yesterday so after a 20 minute workout of thighs and butt, I danced around the house with my favorite music on Spotify, vacuuming, cleaning up in almost every room of the house for one and a half hour. 

Tried to track it with Endomondo, but not sure how well that worked. It did however say that I covered a distance of almost 1200 yards... If that's true I've got an impressively big house, or just ran through it a hell of a lot of times yesterday.

Oh yes...

My Skinny Morning Latte has had a makeover.

There's a new milk in town - Strength
Non fat - extra protein - extra calcium - extra vitamin D

Mix that with my new Sugar Free (OH! Gotta love that) Caramel Coffee Syrup, 2 shots of espresso, and I've got my bucket of Skinny Morning Latte with only 55 calories!!!

Total Calories 54,9

Fat 0,19 g

Protein 6,00 g

Carbs 8,38 g

Oh la la

And here I was waiting for 58 to really establish it self on the weight scale, and when I step on it this morning what do I see???

57,9

Had to turn the thing on and off a couple of times and step on it a few times just to be sure...

57,9 - 57,9 - 57,9

So incredible cool! I know, I'll probably see 58 again a few times more - especially since the weekend is approaching, but nevertheless 57,9 - 57,9

Not much to say

My coffee syrup has arrived. My no-sugar coffee syrup. Just have to pop by the post office and pick it up on the way home.

Other than that I've just been good. Eaten very little. Actually done some exercises and, well, still waiting for 58 to really settle in.

Saw 58,6 today....

Gotta run now. Maybe I'll post more later.

Still waiting

Not for the coffee syrup.... I would think that takes a few days - although I am impatient.
No, I'm waiting for 58.
I could see a hint of it the other day. 58,9. Then I saw 58,6. Then the next day I saw 60!!

Thought I was loosing my mind, then the pizza slices on Saturday came to mind - and the taco... and the double cappuccino... And then suddenly I felt really really low.
So, now I've picked my self up from there. Been super good and almost not eaten.
But my 58-reward doesn't arrive. And it makes my feel said again. Cause I've been such a good girl.

I've had to buy several new pair of pants, cause all my old ones are waaaayyyy to big.
And today I've only had my Skinny Breakfast Latte, and half a cup of Non fat Latte from Starbucks.

And when I come home I am really motivated to do 20 minutes of abs training! Then maybe tomorrow I can write my self down to 58-something!

OMG I'm so excited

I finally, finally found a retailer that will sell MONIN Sugar Free Caramel syrup to ME!!! A private person - not a business!

Oh I'm so happy! Now my Skinny morning Latte can be even skinnier!!! Wohooo

 Jeez I feel like I could dance I'm so happy!!!

Ordered two bottles and can't wait for them to come. Hope it doesn't take long.

Oh, and anoter good news! There's a new milk in town ....

No fat but plenty of proteins and extra vitamin D!!!

Yeah, yeah, I know - silly me. But I'm all giggelish here!!
Well of to bed it is... If I can sleep that is.

Dinner came back up

Finally had time to make proper dinner. Bought fresh cod and baked in oven with fresh vegetables. Yummi!!

Had just finished clearing the table when I felt the fish returning from my stomach. Gross :-(

And I'mpretty sure why....
Felt so good earlier today for almost not eating, and then I stuff my face at dinner time... :-(

Was no need to throw up on purpose. My conscience did it all on it's own.

F*ck F*ck F*ck

I'm so mad at my self I could pull my hair out!
Stupid - stupid me, loosing my control this weekend.

First on Friday - which however I could survive as it was a most peculiar day. Spent the entire day at the hospital. First not able to eat a tiny bit until 10am. Could have worked - had I been able to have my morning coffee. But nooo! No coffee - jeeez not even stupid water!

The result... When I finally could eat I was starving.
And of course "breakfast" was served in the cafeteria...? Skinny milk? NO! Low fat margarine? NO! Whole rye bread? NO!!! Yogurt without added sugar? NOOOO!!!
Jeez you would think it would be easy to find healthy food at a frigging hospital!!!

F*cking white bread, salami, fatty cheese, butter, regular milk, even the bread that looked healthy was just stupid white bread with f*cking dark color!!! Not one single whole grain in it.

So let's just say I had enough calories to last me a whole day.

Then I had to fast again.... Wouldn't have been a problem had I gotten wholegrain bread that would have kept me "NOT HUNGRY" for more than half an hour...

And to top the stupid day at the hospital of... They had to give me a sugar rush to measure my blood sugar and hearth rate with and with out sugar. I have no idea how many calories was in that drink they gave me, but tasted like pure dextrose. And I was still freaking hungry!!

Finally got to finish the day with a heavenly slice of rye bread with minced meat. Lots of protein, fiber and goodies and almost no fat. God I needed that.

Well - I said my Friday was crappy. Saturday just beet Friday down the drain... 

Started as normal with my very Skinny Latte and as I was going to be out all day added a slice of whole grain rye bread to keep me going. After being out and about for 4-5 hours we ended up at a pizzeria...
God help me. You can eat and eat and stuff your face with one calorie bomb after another - and you still don't get sat. I hereby declare pizza the absolutely worse type of calorie bomb food ever!!!!
Two pieces and six-hundred-and-fucking-fifty-eight calories... Felt like throwing up afterwords

And of course had to pop by Starbucks and get a cappuccino and the finish the night with Tacos. At that point I was so low and fed up I ate a bag of nacho chips and he small chocolates!

So! Now I'm done with that!!!!

So glad it's Monday and I'm back at work with my water bottle, my diet pills and that's it.

Focus focus focus

Gotta work on my focus. And this blog is my most important tool for that.
I' m pretty sure that my weight loss would have gone so "easy" without my daily posts on this blog.

The last few days I've noticed that I'm not posting as much as I did in the start.
Two reasons for that

1. Been hectic at work and not much time to blog
2. Feel like I'm repeating my self a little to much

But then again - It's MY freaking blog -and if I feel like repeating my self over and over again - I will do just that.

But now for today's news. I have for the last weeks been using my Frenzy fat loss pills.
And I'm convinced that without them I would be an feeble, limp and and sleepy lump. 
My daily 300 mg of caffeine and 1000mg of green tea extract has done the job my lack of calories normally would. Keep me going through the day.

Yesterday I received a package in the mail with my brand new Raspberry Ketone pills. 

They are mainly for when I've reached my goal weight. Increasing my metabolism so that I don't gain weight once I start eating again - If I do!! 
But of course I had to try them straight away. The adds say they can help you loose up to 7 pounds a week!!! I'm a sucker for adds that promises miracles *HA HA*

Well, we'll just have to see about that. I'll give them a try and post my amazing results