Still not there

Still not at 54!!??
Just hovering over my UGW, now at 54,3...
I kind of know why. But still bugs me that I'm not getting there.

Which is no surprise, since I've kind of relaxed a little about my weight loss now that I'm nearly there.

Had cake yesterday.... and today....
But haven't gone all awol on counting my calories, and do think I'm still pretty good at keeping it low.
Although I'm not as totally nazi with my self as I used to.

I'm not sure I've lost my motivation, or if I still have it.
I feel like I'm... there. Where I wanna be.
The jeans I bought yesterday, size 27, fit me perfectly.
The, OMG i love it so, space between my thighs is so visible.

I get comment every day on how thin I look. Even a few saying I have to start eating again otherwise I'll disappear...

And I feel so, so good!

And then there's a part of me that still isn't happy, and that's fearing that the weight will all come back. But I'm afraid that voice isn't strong enough.

So I need something to help me strengthen my motivation for loosing just a few more pounds so that I have a little buffer zone. Any tips?

Weekend ending

So finally the weekend is coming to an end. Can't wait for the everyday. It's so much easier to handle loosing weight Monday to Friday than on the weekends.

There's like always something special. Either it's Friday night and that it self is a reason for at least one glass of red wine.. or two. And something good to eat. Then it's Saturday and a trip to the mall of course includes a coffee stop. No coffee with friends without something sweet. And so the weekend goes. No wonder people (I) get fat.

Oh well. To morrow it's Monday again and back at 400 calories. That will be good.

So I'll finish this weekend with a last glass of wine, Downton Abbey and flat out on the sofa. Yiha!!

And I thought so

Stepped on the scale this morning and as I sadly predicted, it was already beginning to move upward.
Not good..and of course tonights dinner and glasses of red wine will probably not do any good.

Oh well.. just have to face it. I wont be hitting my UGW this monday as I hoped.
But the good thing is that the jeans I bought three weeks ago are now at least one, almost two sizes to big Ha Ha

Weekend comming up

Used to long for the weekends - the cosmopolitans, good food, red wine, curling up on the sofa with a good book, a  large piece of yummi cake, some chocolate... jeez! No wonder I was fat!!

Well I still normally look forward to the weekends... just that today I'm so incredible close to reaching my goal weight right now, I'm afraid that even a diet weekend will blow it.

So how will I get through this weekend  and still drop a pound from today til Monday?

Thinspiration to my self!

If I ever get fat again (which WILL NOT happend!!!)
This will be my Thinspiration!

This is what I've worked for the last three months!
I did this!

I'm so proud of my self!!!
 

I know the worst part is still ahead of me! Staying this way!
Not dodging the hard work and letting my self go.

I've gone from a size 10 to a size 4!!!
I love my new skinny me!!

 

I am my own thinspiration

I started this blog on August 20th. Sick and tired of my fat body. I'd been working on loosing some weight a few weeks already, when I stumbled over a Thinspiration blog and got curios of the Ana-way to loose weight.

After my vacation in July I weighed 67,6 kg/149 lbs.
On August 20th I was down to 64,2 kg/141,5 lbs - that's 3,4 kg/7.5 lbs lost in 4 weeks (0,85kg a week).
Since I started this blog and found my thinspiration....I've lost another 9,4 kg/20,7 lbs in the 9 weeks (1,04 kg a week)

Today I stepped on the scale and the number 54,8/120,8 lbs showed up.
My Ultimate Goal Weight was 54 kg/119 lbs.
I'm almost there....

• I've been wondering if I'd ever get there?
• How long it would take?

Now, new questions arise...

• What the heck do I do now?
• Should I loose a little more so that I have a buffer for adding weight when I start eating "normal"?
• What is eating "normal" now?

I'm thinking of lowering my UGW to 112 lbs...

I have to think some more about that. I don't want to go to far Ana.

But right now - I revel in the sight of my own reflection each time i look in the mirror!
I love my new skinny me!

Binging on salat???

Jeez!
Didn't think I'd do that!!

Had to take my daughter out eating today, so I had a caesar salad with chicken and a diet coke.
Put the bread aside (don't eat much bread - too many calories)... and then ate almost the whole plate of salad?!?

Broke all my eating rules 
Didn't eat slowly
Didn't swallow everything before I took the next bite
Finished the plate

Shopping - my favorite hobby

And especially when I HAVE to go shopping because I'm now TWO - 2 - sizes smaller than I used to be!!!

So I went to the mall yesterday and spent a fortune on a new skirt, new pullover, a pair of new jeans and a pair of slacks, and most of all, new bras! Jeez my boobs are now so petite.

It's weird to think about that I in August used to be a size EU 38/40 (US 8/10)
And yesterday  a pair of slacks size 36 (US 6) was....*drum roll* .... TOO BIG!!!

I bought a pullover in XS and a pair of slacks size 34 (US 4)
OMG did that feel good!!

OMG! OMG! OMG!

This is like so fantastically insane.
Guess going away for three days and eating hotel breakfast, drinking wine and eating out at TGI Friday's is something I should do more often!

Had a great time, but was rather sure that this great time would show up on the scale this morning.
I mean... 2460 calories on Wednesday!! And more than 2000 of those for dinner. How would that do any good for my loosing weight project??

Then I faced my scale this morning!!!
55,8 kg!!!! Fifty Five Point Eight!!!
123 lbs!! One Hundred and Twenty Three!!! 

How come... I've lost 1,3 kg/2,8 lbs, in one week
Wish I knew what I've done, so I can do it again next week and loose 2,8 lbs more 

The second day of the week effect

So I had this kind of depressing meeting with my scale yesterday.
I mean 7 ounces!! What's that?

But then I faced my scale again this morning, and I do love the second-day-of-the-week-effect
It's like it takes my body one weekday to shed the extra that I've eaten during the weekend.
And boy did it.
 
Yesterday  my scale stopped at 57,1kg or 125,8 lbs
Today is stopped at.... drum roll.... 56,8 kg or 125,2 lbs

Which means...... I've reached my second goal weight!!!