Great day yesterday - not so good today

So happy!!
I had a great day yesterday - only 537 calories and lots of water!

Unfortunately the scale showed almost two - 2 - pounds up, from yesterday to today.
So sad!!

Worse thing is that it's so extremely hard to keep motivated when you don't get any results from being so good.
Which is probably why I had no problem at all caving in and having that slice of chocolate cake with... probably ...more calories than I ate all the whole day yesterday.

Still alive...

Jeez talk about totally falling off the grid!! Well I'm still alive, and there's even more of me now then it was before the summer started.

Yuck! Yuck! Yuck!
Stupid all inclusive vacation at 5star hotel.

But most of all... stupid fucking heart going bonanza this summer.
So after numerous trips to the cardiologist..... I'm back on stupid beta blockers.
Which I hate cause they make me fat!

I actually passed 110lbs on the way down earlier this summer, before my heart went all wild.... Now I'm back at 113,5 lb. So sad - so sad.

Well - there's just one thing to do:

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Time flies when you're having fun

Not sure fun is the right word though, but jeez how time flies.

May is, for all those who are not familiar with Norway, a really hectic month.

First of all, there's the 17th of May. Our constituition day. Which of course envolves the childrens parade:

And there's a lot to do before we can send the kids out in the street, especially if your kids play in the marching band...

And there's a lot of shopping going on for the right outfit for the day, although most of us wear bunad (traditional costume)

But when you've lost about 50 pounds.
Fitting in to your bunad suddenly isn't that easy. And since a bunad costs between NOK 15.000 and 35.000, also know as between $2.600 and $6.200 (£1.700 and £4.100) it's not something you shop every year.

So there I was this year. A size zero body with a size 10 bunad!
I had som serious shopping to do!

Other than my clothing issuses for our constisution day, May has been shit at work, with tons of work, which comes as a result of May having four extra holidays.
So it's been many days with long hours. And the days off has been spent golfing!

I wonder....

... I wonder if I have any readers stilling following this blog.
I don't blame anyone for ditching this blog that hardly gets updated... and even when it does it's just about me, and my constant whining about not getting there.... which of course is no surprise as I've been eating chocolate every freakin day the last two weeks. Jeeez

So I diced to do something different today... Well something more than just whine....as I've already done that

I've decided to share something...
First of all..... my ultimate thinspiration pictures these days...

This just proves.... it can be done!!

So afraid....

So I'm closing in on my new UGW....
And I'm afraid I won't be able to stop :(

I'm so afraid to gain the weight that I've lost that I keep loosing weight
The few weekends that I've tried to just relax and enjoy food I've gained 4-5 pounds....

Then I have to work to get rid of them again to stay where I want to be
The result is that I'm loosing more....

Eatout weekend

OMG Total eatout weekend!
How did I let this happend?
I dread the scale tomorrow. I think I ate enough for the whole week to come.

Tomorrow will be so hard getting back on track.
I'm always hungry after eating so much.

Stress!

Jeeez!

Barely entered the office and already it's a stressful day!
Will be hard to keep focus today with tons of meetings and lunch with a client.

On the upside... the number on the scale today was lower than yesterday :)

Mondays sometimes suck

Monday morning, and I was hoping for a positive number on the scale this morning.
Thought I did so good this weekend.
But the damn scale didn't move an inch down. YUCK!

But good news is I got my new supply of Frenzy Fat Loss, so now I hope my energy level will pick up again.

Today's intake so far:
Breakfast Skinny Latte (56) and home made experimental whole grain cup cake (47):
103 calories
Lunch: 2 Frenzy Fat pills, 2 Raspberry Ketone pills, 2 multivitamins:
0 calories

Then they served cake at work... and I weakened and gave in to a piece. A small one though, but still... I was doing so good.
168 calories Jeez
I'm so hopeless!


Thankfully stickingout challenged the forum for pictures of thigh gaps.
I took a pic of my legs just to see what it looked like, and....

WOW!!

That just lifted my spirit!!!

And then I read a-change's post about What I love about Ana/Mia
And I could so relate to what she listed - I got another pick-me-up

So now, It's home to kids and hubby for a very low calorie dinner
 Here's hoping tomorrow the scale will be on my side again 

Experimenting in the kitchen

Experimenting in the kitchen!

Some days are just good!
Those when you wake up in the morning, step on the scale and it's down half a pound from yesterday.
I like those days!
Makes me feel happy, energetic and ready to face the world!

Went shopping with my daughter yesterday and blew off an enormous amount of money - jeez, that will hurt when I have to pay the bills.
But we had such fun, and I fit into the most amazing skinny little dresses - I just couldn't resist to buy them!
New skinny jeans, small tank tops OMG I love being skinny!!!

And now I feel so motivated to reach my new UGW of 108lbs/49 kg

So as the family left the house today for a bunch of activities... I stayed in the kitchen experimenting!
Baked wholegrain and fiber cupcakes with non fat yogurt and low calorie chocolate chip cookies.
So now I how something healthy to binge on if the urge comes....

and we all know it does...