Wow! Does time fly when you're having fun

And I am having fun!!
Jeez, every time I step on the scale it's like freakin Xmas *haha*

I had two Xmas parties this weekend. And a family gathering.
And I lost 100g (or 0,2 lbs if you like) from Thursday to Tuesday!!!

And that feeling.... dressing up for the Xmas party in my little black dress - SIZE 2!!! - knowing and seeing I so was the thinnest one there. Wow! What a rush!

 

Now that won't be a problem anymore as I now have acquired that Oh so famous, Oh so wanted

SPACE BETWEEN MY THIGHS!!!

Focus Girl! Focus!

So easy to fall back into old habits...

And when you kind of feel that you've reached your goal, it's so easy to lay back and NOT STAY FOCUSED.

And what happens then?? Well, what ya think happen when your stuff your face with cake 4 days in a row?? Stupid, idiotic girl!!

So today and for the f*ing rest of the week little missy! You will go hungry!!!
And you will take the gnawing pain from your stomach and embrace it and love it - for it means you have focus and will get thin...

... will get thin...
...... will get thin...
.......... will get thin...
................. will get thin...
............................ will get thin... 
 

Upping the calories

So I decided to up the calories a bit this weekend since the scale hasn't been kind with the numbers. Maybe that will make the weight loss continue. Kind of sick and tired of watching 54 on the scale...

Was very successful when I did it the last time, so hoping it will do the trick this time too.

The guys at work are complaining that I'm about to disappear - idiots...
Like I'll start eating to humor them in any way??!!! No way!! Besides.. of course they don't know that.. I LOVE IT, when they comment how thin I've become *HA HA*

I LOVE BEING THIN - Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels!

Now I just need to get my thighs a bit thinner so they look a little bit more like these!

I will get there - I know!!

Jeeez..... Oh, and I reached a decision

Can you believe it. The bloody weight just won't move further down!!
54,1.??!!??
I wanna see 53!!! Why does it have to take so long to reach that bloody number?

Oh and I've decided to change my UGW from 54 kg/119 lbs to 52 kg/114,5 lbs.
Which means my scale has to show the number 51,9/144.4 for me to declare goal weight reached

Still not there

Still not at 54!!??
Just hovering over my UGW, now at 54,3...
I kind of know why. But still bugs me that I'm not getting there.

Which is no surprise, since I've kind of relaxed a little about my weight loss now that I'm nearly there.

Had cake yesterday.... and today....
But haven't gone all awol on counting my calories, and do think I'm still pretty good at keeping it low.
Although I'm not as totally nazi with my self as I used to.

I'm not sure I've lost my motivation, or if I still have it.
I feel like I'm... there. Where I wanna be.
The jeans I bought yesterday, size 27, fit me perfectly.
The, OMG i love it so, space between my thighs is so visible.

I get comment every day on how thin I look. Even a few saying I have to start eating again otherwise I'll disappear...

And I feel so, so good!

And then there's a part of me that still isn't happy, and that's fearing that the weight will all come back. But I'm afraid that voice isn't strong enough.

So I need something to help me strengthen my motivation for loosing just a few more pounds so that I have a little buffer zone. Any tips?

Weekend ending

So finally the weekend is coming to an end. Can't wait for the everyday. It's so much easier to handle loosing weight Monday to Friday than on the weekends.

There's like always something special. Either it's Friday night and that it self is a reason for at least one glass of red wine.. or two. And something good to eat. Then it's Saturday and a trip to the mall of course includes a coffee stop. No coffee with friends without something sweet. And so the weekend goes. No wonder people (I) get fat.

Oh well. To morrow it's Monday again and back at 400 calories. That will be good.

So I'll finish this weekend with a last glass of wine, Downton Abbey and flat out on the sofa. Yiha!!

And I thought so

Stepped on the scale this morning and as I sadly predicted, it was already beginning to move upward.
Not good..and of course tonights dinner and glasses of red wine will probably not do any good.

Oh well.. just have to face it. I wont be hitting my UGW this monday as I hoped.
But the good thing is that the jeans I bought three weeks ago are now at least one, almost two sizes to big Ha Ha

Weekend comming up

Used to long for the weekends - the cosmopolitans, good food, red wine, curling up on the sofa with a good book, a  large piece of yummi cake, some chocolate... jeez! No wonder I was fat!!

Well I still normally look forward to the weekends... just that today I'm so incredible close to reaching my goal weight right now, I'm afraid that even a diet weekend will blow it.

So how will I get through this weekend  and still drop a pound from today til Monday?

Thinspiration to my self!

If I ever get fat again (which WILL NOT happend!!!)
This will be my Thinspiration!

This is what I've worked for the last three months!
I did this!

I'm so proud of my self!!!
 

I know the worst part is still ahead of me! Staying this way!
Not dodging the hard work and letting my self go.

I've gone from a size 10 to a size 4!!!
I love my new skinny me!!

 

I am my own thinspiration

I started this blog on August 20th. Sick and tired of my fat body. I'd been working on loosing some weight a few weeks already, when I stumbled over a Thinspiration blog and got curios of the Ana-way to loose weight.

After my vacation in July I weighed 67,6 kg/149 lbs.
On August 20th I was down to 64,2 kg/141,5 lbs - that's 3,4 kg/7.5 lbs lost in 4 weeks (0,85kg a week).
Since I started this blog and found my thinspiration....I've lost another 9,4 kg/20,7 lbs in the 9 weeks (1,04 kg a week)

Today I stepped on the scale and the number 54,8/120,8 lbs showed up.
My Ultimate Goal Weight was 54 kg/119 lbs.
I'm almost there....

• I've been wondering if I'd ever get there?
• How long it would take?

Now, new questions arise...

• What the heck do I do now?
• Should I loose a little more so that I have a buffer for adding weight when I start eating "normal"?
• What is eating "normal" now?

I'm thinking of lowering my UGW to 112 lbs...

I have to think some more about that. I don't want to go to far Ana.

But right now - I revel in the sight of my own reflection each time i look in the mirror!
I love my new skinny me!